Keep the Sun

We did away with the old ones
Tried our best to find some warmth in the cold months
On our chest we put the thought that if we wanted
We could keep until we're old and the youth's gone
And I'd drawn
Upon the time that i spent here
A lot has happened overall in the two years
And I think that if we're trying to be clear
There might be something that I won't get to keep here


Say what you will, cause I don't care
This is the very last time I can see myself here
I won't be sitting and thinking what I have been missing no,
I'd rather keep the sun than meet you there
Say what you will, I think i'm past
All the trouble we caused the year before last
I simply know that it's over and we're getting older, oh
I think we all should have to learn from that


We found ourselves living re-runs
Tried our best to tell ourselves it was still fun
On my mind there was the thought it was over
Here and lost and now we're grown and the youth's gone
And I thought
Was I alone in my thinking
I'm bored but i Know you still love all the same things
I'm only waiting for the last ones to catch up
And I bet you'll waste another night drinking

I have not posted in so long...

That the site didn't even remember my password. Neither did I, so I had to run through three emails to get it. Duh, me.

Anyway, big stuff has been happening. We had our first brush with a major label, and they wouldn't meet our terms - I feel that we're better off (not everybody does though). My studio project is taking off, and I have a few guys that frequent the place to record powerpop and assorted tunes. One such client decided to fuck me over, and I have a court date coming up for that. I have yet another song done for the cd, called "Let You Go", and no, it's not going out to anybody so don't ask <3.

We played Stillwater on friday. There's a few people in my life (not that I want them there) who still refuse to grow up, but there's really nothing anyone can do about it. I was the bigger person, and kept my own ass out of the mud-slinging, and am better off for it.

The Supersecret EP is finally coming out, and I can't wait to take it back down and replace it with our new shiny amazing songs. It's killing me because the EP isn't even technically released yet.

I'm writing miles of shit; maybe I'll just try to pick up again tomorrow.

And oh yeah, my birthday is on Thursday. I've been so wrapped up in shit that I totally forgot about it. We celebrated a bit yesterday, and my mom made a cake shaped like an easter bunny. It was awesome.

I fucking love everything except school right now. I'll survive the semester, but I'd so much rather just make music all the time.

Happy bday to me, 20 years old.
:)

What's Right

I'm writing in this thing for the first time in like two months - the last time it was just lyrics, and I'll throw some for the newest song at the bottom of this.
I'm panicked by the shit going on around me and the things I love.
We're talking to people who could shape the future of the band and my future. It's not a situation to be taken lightly either. I'm absolutely petrified that I'll do the wrong thing, but there's no possible way for me to know.
I'm about to hit a point where I have to take a huge leap of faith either in myself or the people we're going to be relying on, and depending on how either pans out, the decision WILL make or break the band one way or the other. It's like a 50-50 if I do nothing, and a 50-50 if we all act. This is as important as things get for me, and I'm brick-walled.

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I put your name on my chest,
You put your words in my head.
Do I know if what I'm doing's right?

Oh, I hope I know what's right
Cause we may only have one night
To take all these chances,
Have my questions answered,
Do I know if what I'm doing is right?

Miss Me

Right now, I need you to miss me.
That's how I keep you here with me.
I want this moment to hit me.
I need this moment to hit me.

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Live in love.

Calling Home

hey i never doubted in the first place
i'd say that everything is gonna be alright
cause you and i are in this mess together
and nothing good or bad can last forever

we're calling it home
but oh no, we're alone
and i've been feeling this way
everywhere that i go
if this isn't home
then i know we should rest
because home is where you make it
and we're not there yet

hey i tend to focus on the upside
someday i'm pretty sure that it'll all be fine
cause i can't sleep if you're not feeling better
and i know we both lie awake together

if this is my home
then it goes where you go

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Live in love.

This thing is in need of an update.

I spend days and days and days in love. And I think about only a few things these days. How I want to survive this semester (almost done), how I always want to be with her, and The Title. New songs are pouring out lately, one done last week and another most likely this week, and plenty of ideas inside my head.

I'm making a vocal booth in my room for future recording, this excites me greatly.

The next batch of songs is slowly coming to the surface, and all I've heard are good things from everyone - it's a bit more real sounding, like traditional title but with room for guitars and bass and actual drums (which is how I made all the drums sound in the new tunes).

I worry way too much about how it's going to come out - everyone loves the stuff, as far as I can tell, but I'm always worried lately that the new stuff won't be as well received. Granted I'm pushing us in a much more accessible direction (namely a less severe electronic feel versus pop rock), it's so different for me and all of our fans, that any reaction will be a surprise to me.

I live in love, and would like that written on my body somewhere. That's my latest thought.
I want my entire arm to be bird shaped windows with a night sky behind them, and live in love tattooed somewhere on my body - perhaps on my right side, written along the arms of my first tattoo.

Thoughts.
Hope this gets read.
Hope we don't get signed and have to run away.
Hope everyone likes the new stuff.
Hope my roommate will stop snoring.

Oh yeah,
And i bought a skateboard.
:)

Live in love.

I don't know

How to fall asleep on my own anymore.